Real life fault in our stars

Amidst all the chaos I found myself steadily fangirling over Sid and Kiara’s wedding. I mean how can I not, it gave me hope to believe in love and have faith in all the hopes that I have. 

Lately, I have been surrounded by so much negative energy and found myself always frustrated at so many things. I can’t believe even the tiniest of things infuriated me, from the conversations I had with people to the pebbles I found on the road I was walking. There were even moments when I would rush home and break down and even in the middle of some nights I would find myself crying. Pouring out felt so much better but it got worse when I found myself crying till some mornings. I tried so much to distract myself and assured myself that things will work out but I couldn’t even figure out what was wrong in the first place. I blamed it all on my life and my work of course because I found it easier than to blame another human being. Slowly I found comfort in staying alone, shutting everyone out and viewing things negatively. The worst was hating myself. 

Just like any other human with a beating heart I also got to have my heart beat for another human being. However, it never favored me, in fact it has always been in its cruelest form whenever it encountered me. At such times, the only thing that kept me alive was blaming love and I swore to never to believe in it. 

Well, seeing such a beautiful wedding filled my heart with warmth after so many months. Not to forget the revised ‘Ranjha’ song,'sigh' there couldn’t have been anything more beautiful and perfect than their wedding and them. I would like to claim myself to be a voracious reader of romantic novels but I knew 'happily ever after' was only in novels until I saw them. 

I definitely sound like a girl living in a fantasy world right now but believe me there are certain things which hit you differently and once it does you just can’t undo it. I hope I am not the only one romanticizing every little thing.

If I have any say in this world, I would like to fill the love portion of this world with more of such beautiful couples and give hope to all those broken hearts, find soul mates for all those who are waiting for one and awaken the lost faith in love once again like Sid and Kiara's wedding did for me.

Life surely is beautiful like my friend said.

Photo credit to my friend Kuenga