Transition

Although there is a willingness to adapt to change, the ability to accept change is minimal, whereby we are so used to being in our comfort zone that we are not able to adjust to slightest change from the normal. It has been more than three years since my last classroom life and for those years I neither had to sit in one position listening to someone for hours nor I  had to submit assignments or even write the examinations so there was no obligation for living each day. The datelines for the work could be met anytime and even if I failed at times there was a flexibility of giving explanations, not excuses though. 

Now that I have to shift myself to being the one to listen and meet the academic requirements my mind refuses to do so easily. The fact that I have no background of economics and mathematics makes it worse although I am not proud to admit this. In the pool, a maximum of the students are either doing their second masters or are recent graduates. There is the determination to learn more for those doing their second masters while there is burning passion and fresh mind for those continuing their education and in between these two groups it’s me, a blank paper who took on a challenge to study economics after a gap of education and with no basis at all. This fact also makes me reflect on our country’s position in terms of education and the investment in the development of Human Resources.

Everyday I go to my classes with the blank page and since I don’t have prior knowledge on the subjects my expectations are low and everything taught in the classes never fails to amaze me. There is a fear and the anxiety that I won’t be able to catch up with the rest yet I reassure myself. I confide to the positive affirmations and smile whenever the fear crawls up.

Additionally, the professors here are knowledgeable, experienced and each of them having graduated from prestigious universities around the world just makes me feel privileged to be in their classes. 

To the challenge and the opportunity ahead I am hoping my inability to transition faster won’t be an obstacle to achieving my goals and filling the blank page with the best.